Friday, January 29, 2010

sense of gratefullness

After watching a show about dr's in Haiti working on the people that needed it and hearing that a friend got a job that she had been praying about makes me very sad that I am not more grateful for the job that I believe that God brought me too.

My new prayer is to be grateful no matter what situation comes my way. There is no reason for me to grumble. So what if I lose a couple hours of pay. I am safe, my family is safe (I pray that my daughter is safe, we haven't heard from her in a couple of weeks.) we have food in the house and we have electricity. Even if we did not have electricity we have games that we could play as a family and hurricane lamps that would provide light and some heat.

So much more to life than the stupid little things I have been fretting about.

I pray that God will help me become a more grateful person in life.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

feeling a sense of discontentment

Not sure if I really like this whole idea of blogging to just let anyone read the issues that I am going through especially if the people reading it (if anyone) are not really in my life. But I guess any prayers sent up are honored if the person is righteous. (you know the prayer of the righteous availith much).

So I am trying not to be ungrateful about my job but it feels lately like I am being babysat at work. Phone calls are being monitored, emails are being monitored. I am not a working adult that needs to be watched over to make sure that I am working.

I know that I can find all the answers in the Bible and throught prayer but I feel very unsure of everything right now.

I need to start reading the Bible daily and spending all of my extra time in prayer. This feeling is not a settling feeling.

Do you ever feel like there is something more? That is what I am feeling right now.

Will lean on God for the answer and will try my hardest to fight the urge to move with out the guidance and direction from the Father first.