Searching

I have just spend the last hour looking and and reading blogs by people. The people that wrote the blogs are very open about their life, everything about their life and I am not sure if I could ever be that open with total strangers.
I wonder if God is calling me to be more open, honest, vulnerable. I am not sure if I can.

I feel so lost sometimes. Work, church, friends. The only thing that I am sure about is that Jesus loves me, that he has the best in store for me and my relationship with the husband.

There are times that I feel that it is only my husband and I like he is my only friend. I don't make friends easily. I can count on one hand the people that I feel that I can be truly honest with. My husband being one of them.


It seems like everyone in my family is searching at the moment.
I mean the daughter is living for herself and I can only assume that she is searching for her own way. I just pray that God finds her and she listens and runs back to him.

The son is constantly searching for his own way, I just pray that he leans on God and just accepts that we are not meant to know all the answers to everything. We sometimes just need to lean on our faith and go on about our day.