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Be praying for me that I will be aware of God's voice in my life if there is a move in the future.

passion

I have been thinking lately about passion. I know lots of people that absolutley love what they do for a living. Dont get me wrong. I like my job. I get paid decent for what I do. But...... if someone asked me if I would continue doing what I currently do if the money stopped I don't know if I would.

I started thinking about what I like to do and the things I came up with I dont think I could make a career out of. So I guess My prayer to God would be what is my passion? What exactly do you have me here for?

Guess now I just need to be still and wait on the Lord. 

Psalm 27:10  "Wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord"

I know He will answer me in His timing. The hardest thing would be staying still and waiting.

Dentist

So I went to the Dentist this morning. I have to get a root canal. I am so not happy with this. I am not sure when I will schedule the root canal probably after I have the money to pay for it. Cried on the way to the pharmacy to fill my prescription for an antibiotic to get rid of the puffy gum in my mouth. they are HUGE. I am going to have to put the filling of the capsules on something that I eat to get the medicine in my system.
Totally not the way I wanted to start my Wednesday. I guess it is good that I was 36 before my first big issue with my teeth came up.

New Testament and Dentists.

So today starts day 72 of my Bible in 90 days adventure. Only 18 more days to go and I got into the New Testament yesterday. I have to say so far the NT is a much easier read than the OT. Granted it is only Matthew, when I get to Revalation I may change my tune. When I am done with this adventure I need to figure out what to do next. I am looking on the web to see if there are any great Bible studies out there. There are I am just having a hard time figuring out where God wants me to read after this is done. Not sure. But I am sure that if I am diligent in prayer God will show me where he wants me to study in 18 days. but until then I will keep looking. Maybe something will jump out at me and I will just know that this is what I am supposed to be reading.

On a different note I have to go to the dentist on Wednesday morning. I HATE dentists. Not the people specifically , the job. They have needles and drills and iflict pain. Not exactly how I want to spend my Wednesday morning. I could probably avoid it if my tooth did not hurt and my gum wasnt puffy..but since it hurts to chew on that side of my mouth guess I have to go get it taken care of.  Guess all morning I need to make sure Phillipians 4:6-7 is running through my mind.
God does not want me to be anxious He wants me to give it all to him. Maybe I should start praying for peace and calm now. GRRRRR I hate having these feelings, but I guess it is normal. My husband will be there so that will make me feel better. He is a very calming presence.

Bible in 90 days

So I have been consistently reading through the Bible in 90 days. Some days are harder than others and I am probably missing things as I read anywhere from 8 to 15 chapters a day. After this is done I am going to have to keep making the reading of God's word a priority in my day. Maybe not as extensive as 8 to 15 chapters a day but something that will help me in my daily walk. Thank goodness for the You Version App on my Iphone and Ipad this way I can at least do some type of reading after this is over.

I realized during this challenge that I am really bad about praying. Maybe that needs to be my next mini goal to pray consistently for so many days. I know that is one of the ways God talks to us just have never been taught how to pray so I am self teaching at this point in my life both with both Bible study and prayer. There is probably a lot more that I need to learn I think God is starting on these two items first.

Although I am kind of afraid to ask God for anything because I know he will answer and I am not sure how ready I am to be radical. I know that sounds bad but I would rather be honest with my self and where I am than to make others think that I am all together and ready for everything when I am not.

Bible reading

So I have never been very good at reading the bible. Never really had anyone take the time to really "teach" or mentor me. So when one of the blogs I follow challenged her followers and friends to read the bible in 90 days I felt the leading to do it. So I just finished day 3. Learned that I don't remember as much as I thought I did. Read some stuff so far in Genisis that I don't remember before. Been in church my whole life. Think I will learn more by doing this challenges than the previous 35 years going to church every Sunday. I love the fact that the people that are doing this challenge are holding each other accountable on a facebook page created specifically for this 90 day challenge. I have been taking notes as I am reading. Little things that jump out to me. Like last nights reading I figured it that Adam was still aive when noah was born. I will probably never forget that.

Memorial Day Weekend

Memorial Day weekend was relaxing..  We sold our Nissan back to Car Max, where we bought it. This enabled us to go shopping over the weekend. I have to tell you we did not save any of it. but you know that is ok because this money was not in our budget. I finally got my iPad that I have wanted for over a year. Matt made me buy some things I needed because I wont do it by my self. and I got some cute clothes as well. I feel like the majority of the money we got for the car was spent on me and I actually hate that because there is always someone more deserving of the money or I could buy cute things for my friends or family. I have to tell you I do not regret buying my iPad. I LOVE IT!!!!!! I also do not regret buying the clothes or the underthings that Matt made me buy. The only thing I do regret is that one of the things (clothes) that I wanted to buy somehow did not make it to the check out. That kinda bums me out but you know it is just clothing.

we looked up a drivers education school to enroll Z in and I am glad that we have some of the money left so we wont have to use any of our budgeted money for the drivers ed. Ok so now for my freak out moment, I AM NOT READY FOR HIM TO BE DRIVING!!!!!! ok I am better. Z driving is a good thing it just means that he is growing up and pretty soon he will be out of our house. It is a really good thing that Matt and I love spending time together and that we get several days throught out the week to enjoy each others company.

Since we no longer have to put money out for the car payment, our house payment went down our gas (for the car ) will go down as well and we will start figuring out what to do with the money first. You know like should we put the money in savings first or start chunking that money on our second mortgage and that horrible thing paid off more quickly. That is something that Matt and I have to decide. but you know just having that "extra" money each month is such a relief.

Ok so saying all that I will sum up by saying that I am deeply grateful for Matt to "give up" spending a lot of money on himself in order to let me have what I want and somethings I need. He is the best husband, friend, supporter that I could hav ever asked for.  I LOVE HIM!!!!!