Our Five year anniversary is on Friday, October 9, We celebrated early by going out to dinner last night at the Coach House. This was a very special night. I had mentioned going somewhere for date night /anniversary night, but could not decide on a place. I finally text Matt and tell him I don't care where we go or what we do just as long as we are together. Well I get home and he tells me to get ready that we have some place to go. Instead of asking questions (like we all know I usually would have) I just got ready and we went.
He drove us straight to the Coach House. We had a great quiet dinner, loved every minute with him. We got deserts (one for him and one for me, of course we shared) They had written Happy Anniversay on the plate in chocolate. It was great.
As we are sitting there getting ready to start eating, he looks around and says that something is missing. I look at him like he has lost his mind, nothing was missing on the table. Well after he said that he reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out a box. That sneaky man went and bought me a gift. I was beyond surprised.
I opened the box and there was a very pretty silver bracelet with a sapphire heart attached.
Needless to say I LOVE IT!!!! My husband has such good taste in jewlery.
It was all in all a great evening. I can not wait to celebrate Oodles and OOdles of more anniversaries with him.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Ladies Retreat
I was given the opportunity to join the women's retreat from Council Road at the Sullivant Center out in Norman.
I was not planning on going because of homework and I am kinda a homebody. I like to be with Matt.
Let me tell you it was with much anxiety and coaxing from Matt that I went.
I am so glad I did. Not only did I have a night that was eye opening but it was strangely relaxing being away from the house. (The guys had a night just to themselves).(They need that just as much as I do).
One thing that me being there afforded me was the realiziation that I hate Matt's disability. I deal with it because I love him and God brought us together, and that is my duty as his wife. But I had realized that ever since all this started (around April of 2005) I had not "dealt" with this disability, and I was mad at God.
As I was listening to the testimony of a very dear woman, I realized that she had felt the same way I had felt back then and even to this day. Alone, unloved, uncared for, This realization makes me cry as I type this because I know that is not true. It is a ploy of satan to get us to take our focus off of Him who matters most. I am truly saddened to say that this took me 4 1/2 years to figure out. Still not quite over it, but really who does get over the fact that her 39 year old husband is physically not the man she married almost 5 years ago. Does that mean I love him any less. No. I love him more today than the day I married him. I have never been more blessed than to be his wife. People might find that strange just becuase they see him having difficulty and they probably want to give us pity. Not the right reaction. God is letting us deal with this for a specific reason. Just not sure what that reason is right now. You never know it could be a ministry opportunity later on.
So needless to say the retreat was right where God wanted me. It was time for me to deal with my feelings regarding this. I have been a happier person since then. I know that God is in control and I don't feel that I am alone anymore, because I have openend my heart and mind and I am trying to embrace this season of life that I am in even though it is very hard. I know God can and will bring me through this life lesson with many things to share.
I was not planning on going because of homework and I am kinda a homebody. I like to be with Matt.
Let me tell you it was with much anxiety and coaxing from Matt that I went.
I am so glad I did. Not only did I have a night that was eye opening but it was strangely relaxing being away from the house. (The guys had a night just to themselves).(They need that just as much as I do).
One thing that me being there afforded me was the realiziation that I hate Matt's disability. I deal with it because I love him and God brought us together, and that is my duty as his wife. But I had realized that ever since all this started (around April of 2005) I had not "dealt" with this disability, and I was mad at God.
As I was listening to the testimony of a very dear woman, I realized that she had felt the same way I had felt back then and even to this day. Alone, unloved, uncared for, This realization makes me cry as I type this because I know that is not true. It is a ploy of satan to get us to take our focus off of Him who matters most. I am truly saddened to say that this took me 4 1/2 years to figure out. Still not quite over it, but really who does get over the fact that her 39 year old husband is physically not the man she married almost 5 years ago. Does that mean I love him any less. No. I love him more today than the day I married him. I have never been more blessed than to be his wife. People might find that strange just becuase they see him having difficulty and they probably want to give us pity. Not the right reaction. God is letting us deal with this for a specific reason. Just not sure what that reason is right now. You never know it could be a ministry opportunity later on.
So needless to say the retreat was right where God wanted me. It was time for me to deal with my feelings regarding this. I have been a happier person since then. I know that God is in control and I don't feel that I am alone anymore, because I have openend my heart and mind and I am trying to embrace this season of life that I am in even though it is very hard. I know God can and will bring me through this life lesson with many things to share.
Life
A Lot has been going on since I wrote last. Some of it sad other stuff not so sad and some stuff super.
I am praying for Angelea. She has put her self in a tough position right now and she is running from those that can give her sound adivce. I guess this is one of those learning seasons for her. I hope and pray she learns quickly and moves on. I know God knew she was going to take this path I have to keep remembering that even though it is hard. I also have to remember that even if I don't exactly know how to pray for her or what to specifically pray for I know that God knows the best for her. I leave her to Him.
Zion has been dealing with a lot of stuff right now which in turn means that we all have been dealing with stuff right now. Lots of things going on in his brain that I am just not sure about. I am praying for him as well. I am praying that I can be the person in his life that God needs me to be for his sake.
Matt has been dealing with migraines very badly. September 27 turned out to be a pretty bad weekend day. It was Sunday and it was day three of a migraine. That day turned ended up with us in the ER treating Matt's migraine because we had no more of his meds and could not get any until his next appointment,,,,In november. We eventually got some medication. He had a procedure the next day to possibly help with his migraines. Since that procedure he has had a migraine but we think it was from the super weather front that moved in last weekend. He hasn't had one since then. He has another procedure the 12 to do the same thing to the other side of his neck. Hopefully with the grace of God this will curb some of the if not most of the migraines.
That in itself would be a blessing.
I have embarked on an undertaking called Scentsy. I love these candles and I don't say that about much. (I am kinda picky)..I am praying that I will succeed in this little side business. There are many goals that I want for this business but first and foremost I want to use what I do for the good of the kingdom. I know that God will direct where I can help.
I am praying for Angelea. She has put her self in a tough position right now and she is running from those that can give her sound adivce. I guess this is one of those learning seasons for her. I hope and pray she learns quickly and moves on. I know God knew she was going to take this path I have to keep remembering that even though it is hard. I also have to remember that even if I don't exactly know how to pray for her or what to specifically pray for I know that God knows the best for her. I leave her to Him.
Zion has been dealing with a lot of stuff right now which in turn means that we all have been dealing with stuff right now. Lots of things going on in his brain that I am just not sure about. I am praying for him as well. I am praying that I can be the person in his life that God needs me to be for his sake.
Matt has been dealing with migraines very badly. September 27 turned out to be a pretty bad weekend day. It was Sunday and it was day three of a migraine. That day turned ended up with us in the ER treating Matt's migraine because we had no more of his meds and could not get any until his next appointment,,,,In november. We eventually got some medication. He had a procedure the next day to possibly help with his migraines. Since that procedure he has had a migraine but we think it was from the super weather front that moved in last weekend. He hasn't had one since then. He has another procedure the 12 to do the same thing to the other side of his neck. Hopefully with the grace of God this will curb some of the if not most of the migraines.
That in itself would be a blessing.
I have embarked on an undertaking called Scentsy. I love these candles and I don't say that about much. (I am kinda picky)..I am praying that I will succeed in this little side business. There are many goals that I want for this business but first and foremost I want to use what I do for the good of the kingdom. I know that God will direct where I can help.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
The daughter
She does not live with us anymore. She decided to move back to her mom's house.
Haven't talked to her since Thursday.
Haven't talked to her since Thursday.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
the daughter
So the pregnancy scare has not dettered her from having sex. He mother wants to put her on the depo shot so she wont have to remember to take the pill. I want her to just show some self control and not have sex.
She has decided to move back in with us and I am not sure how I feel about that. She is 18 we can't ground her , or babysit her so how do we make sure that she does not do any more stupid stuff. Not sure. The only thing I can think of is to pray that God protects her and keeps her safe.
She has decided to move back in with us and I am not sure how I feel about that. She is 18 we can't ground her , or babysit her so how do we make sure that she does not do any more stupid stuff. Not sure. The only thing I can think of is to pray that God protects her and keeps her safe.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Venting
Have to vent for a minute about parents. And not just any parents. Parents that carry the child for 9 months (typically), have them in the same house as them and want to be their friend while they are growing up and then complaining how they turned out because they did not do what they needed to and that was being a parent.
Parents also do not tell their children that it is ok to have sex with just anyone just as long as you use protection. Yes folks you heard me right. That is some of the great advice that Angelea is getting from her "mom". Angelea is grounded right now, who grounds an 18 year old, for having unprotected sex. Her punishment she can not go anywhere, even over here if she so chooses, which she doesn't unless she needs something, and she has to watch her little 2 year old sister as punishment to make her learn the lesson of having a child.
sure hasn't helped the people that made the 2 year old learn.
The "mom" has changed her sercurity settings so that I can not see her profile anymore. Which means she is probably going to say horrible things about Matt and I. I had thought about posting a comment to my facebook page, hoping she would read it but that would not make me any better than her and what she has been doing and probably is doing.
I just hope that the "parents" grow up a little bit, stop trying to force Angelea to get on the depo shot, and making it seem like Angelea does not have the self control to not have sex.
It is funny that now this woman wants to be her parent. It is too late now. she should have started 18 years ago. Now she is set in her ways and will do what ever she wants because she can.
So frustrated.
Parents also do not tell their children that it is ok to have sex with just anyone just as long as you use protection. Yes folks you heard me right. That is some of the great advice that Angelea is getting from her "mom". Angelea is grounded right now, who grounds an 18 year old, for having unprotected sex. Her punishment she can not go anywhere, even over here if she so chooses, which she doesn't unless she needs something, and she has to watch her little 2 year old sister as punishment to make her learn the lesson of having a child.
sure hasn't helped the people that made the 2 year old learn.
The "mom" has changed her sercurity settings so that I can not see her profile anymore. Which means she is probably going to say horrible things about Matt and I. I had thought about posting a comment to my facebook page, hoping she would read it but that would not make me any better than her and what she has been doing and probably is doing.
I just hope that the "parents" grow up a little bit, stop trying to force Angelea to get on the depo shot, and making it seem like Angelea does not have the self control to not have sex.
It is funny that now this woman wants to be her parent. It is too late now. she should have started 18 years ago. Now she is set in her ways and will do what ever she wants because she can.
So frustrated.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
personal life
I hate to put this down especially in writing but I am having a hard time reading the Bible and praying. I am not sure exactly what the problem that I am having is but I am. I should say I am not doing it consistently.
The shocking news that we got on Sunday night made me realize that I don't do enough on my knees praying for my kids.
AG called on Sunday and told us in a voice mail that she had made a wrong decision and decided to have sex with a "man" and she thought that she was pregnant.
Husband took her to our family doctor to have tests run and Praise Jesus she was not. I feel like there was something more that I could have done. But I know from the time Husband and I got married I stressed to her saving herself until marriage. Apparently the urge was too strong for her.
Praying that she can control herself now until she gets married. That way she only has to tell her husband of one mistake not many.
The shocking news that we got on Sunday night made me realize that I don't do enough on my knees praying for my kids.
AG called on Sunday and told us in a voice mail that she had made a wrong decision and decided to have sex with a "man" and she thought that she was pregnant.
Husband took her to our family doctor to have tests run and Praise Jesus she was not. I feel like there was something more that I could have done. But I know from the time Husband and I got married I stressed to her saving herself until marriage. Apparently the urge was too strong for her.
Praying that she can control herself now until she gets married. That way she only has to tell her husband of one mistake not many.
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